To my dear "Ex-wife"

To my dear future wife… I once wished to be whatever you needed me to be I once wanted to have the confidence to open my eyes and see. I once wanted to speak what only my heart could truly feel But I found out that what I once wished couldn’t become reality. My dear future wife, I wish you knew how much I loved you. I tried talking to you but you got dense. I tried hugging your soul but it just ran away I tried kissing the wound in your heart but everything slowly fell apart. My dear future wife, you were blinded and deaf. It was hard to make things clear for you and help us grow. I felt rejected and cast aside as if I didn’t matter to your eyes, as if I couldn’t make you smile. As If I was the problem from the start… My dear future wife. I have many problems, many traumas and many things going on. I wish you could understand my side of the story… know that I am doing my best… And even if I get annoying and boring, even if I start being stubborn or forgetful. Please know that sound won’t come out, no matter how hard I try… But remember that I am trying my best to love and care. My dear future wife, I think that we shouldn’t be together. I break us, one time after another, and you aren’t ready to help me clean the house You have your mess after all But even with my troubles I still want to help you, and even with all my wrongs, you shout with a smile. My dear future wife, I am sorry for not being your prince in shinning armour. But I am myself and I cant change myself. I do wish we could both interact with each other. Evolve even after many repetitions. But I no longer think its possible… My dear future wife… go find someone else… Get a new husband… someone better… I believe its best… Even if you hear a tear shout, don’t turn to salt. For We have different ideals